Back in 2007, the year before I started writing this blog, I lost a lot of weight. 3 stone (approx. 40 lbs) to be exact. Although I could have done with losing more, I looked so much better, and felt absolutely great.
Sadly over the last seven years, all the weight has gradually piled back on, and probably a bit more, and I’m now back where I started. Very fat, very unhappy about it, and a long way the wrong side of 40. Not a great mixture, particularly health-wise.
I am aware that I have an extremely unhealthy relationship with food, and I recognize that I will, almost without a doubt, struggle with my weight for the rest of my life. I have started a diet twice this year, and failed twice. Lack of willpower, pure and simple.
So I was really interested when my friend Amy started the Cambridge Diet several weeks ago, and has had some amazing results in a very short time. Until recently, I’ve always been very against meal replacement diets, but I feel now as though I’m in a situation where I’ll give anything a go.
And I started looking into these ‘VLCDs’ (very low calorie diets), and researching the different options. And I decided that I am now desperate enough, and worried enough about the impact of my weight of my health, to try one.
When you have as much weight to lose as I do, the attraction of very speedy weightloss is a big incentive. The thought of Weight Watchers or Slimming World yet again, and that 1 or 2 lbs a week loss just feels too big a mountain to climb.
So today I have started the Exante diet. 600 calories per day, in the form of 3 dehydrated shakes, soups and meals. Along with lots of water, and the occasional can of Coke Zero (oh yeah, Coke Zero, can’t tell you how happy it made me when I found out I could have it with Exante!).
Yes, it might be a ‘quick fix’. Yes, it might not work. Yes, I might fail. Again. But if I don’t try, how will I ever know?
It won’t be easy, I know that. But I’m hoping that the weight loss will be dramatic, and that the ‘food’ won’t taste too awful. In a weird way, I’m actually looking forward to taking proper food right out of the equation – because of my issues around overeating, maybe this will be a good thing for me.
So wish me luck and send positive vibes my way, please. I’m keeping everything crossed that this will be the time I succeed.